Elizabeth Ann VanderHeyden

Stupid.

2009-06-08T15:52:56Z

I am a happy, happy girl.

But for real?

2009-04-07T03:24:43Z

2009 is kicking my ass so far. I can practically feel my skin toughening and see that wall building itself right back up. Wonderful.

Rock and roll ain't noise pollution.

2009-03-27T20:36:57Z

I'd write something, but everything I have to say sounds way too melodramatic to be written underneath these pictures. But yes, other than feeling like I lack real substance in my life a lot of the time, I am doing pretty well.

Since when

2009-03-12T20:01:26Z

Is it okay for anyone to add their two cents? If I don't ask for your advice/input, I don't want it.
If you can only be an asshole to me, I will be a bitch to you. Stop mocking me and maybe we can start having normal conversations again.

I'll give this one more try

2009-03-09T21:17:44Z

Photo blog

2009-03-03T22:57:23Z

1. a picture of you in your room

2. a picture with someone you don't actually like

3. a picture of you very drunk

4. a picture of you on your birthday, or your favourite holiday

Birthday, 2008

5. the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form

6. a picture of you in your favourite clothes

I really liked this dress before it lost all its shape.

7. a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera

8. a picture you miiight have edited to make yourself more attractive

9. a picture of a night you regret

I have never puked so much from drinking in one night.

10. a picture of you truly being yourself

I guess.

11. the most recent picture of you

12. a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous

13. a picture of you showing off a new haircut/colour

14. a picture of a time in your life that is over, but you wish wasn't

Half sad it's over.

15. a picture of a time in your life that is over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is

High school poms...doesn't even matter when this picture is from.

16. a picture of you when you were anything but happy

I went to the doctor the day after and found out I had pneumonia. What a miserable night.

17. a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken

18. a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now

19. a picture of you with someone you love

20. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you

21. a picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day

22. a picture of a time when everything was changing

23. a picture that makes your heart hurt

24. a picture that makes your heart smile

25. a picture of one of the best days/nights of your life

Today's mood summed up in one picture.

2009-02-18T03:35:42Z

"Hope over fear"

2009-01-20T17:49:49Z

I am officially not ashamed to be American anymore. We have a black president. Don't let us down, Obama.

Please

2009-01-16T17:13:39Z

Tell me that Memphis really isn't the shithole of America, because that's all I've heard about it. I'm driving there with Gwyn in March for So You Think You Can Dance auditions. Having the biggest cheapskate ever as a sister kind of sucks sometimes.

God damn it

2008-12-29T01:30:22Z

Just don't talk to me.

YES

2008-12-26T03:07:13Z

They're even more beautiful in person.

Probably gained ten pounds from the last few days. It's not my fault that there's a plethora of cookies staring at me everytime I'm near the kitchen. But it's okay, I had a really good Christmas.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-12-14T15:50:00

2008-12-14T21:57:06Z

I feel completely unprepared for final exams this week, but I can't help but be so distracted thinking about how good winter break is going to be. I just need to pass these tests so I can wash my hands of this past semester. I've definitely learned the hard way why elders tell you not to skip class.

In other news, this is my ideal New Years Eve dress:

I am bidding on this dress right now, which I will probably lose:

Definitely made a hair appointment on the 31st, and definitely cannot wait until my savings account says $0. Yay!

bvanderheyden @ 2008-11-28T11:34:00

2008-11-28T17:34:53Z

WHY WON'T ANYONE FUCKING HIRE ME??? I am not thankful for this economy.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-11-05T17:26:00

2008-11-05T23:35:51Z

A. Like lots of people already said, I'm so so proud of America today. I never thought I would EVER bring myself to say that, but I really am for the first time ever.

B. I think I'm going to do a 180 and major in marketing instead of sociology or social work. I'm going for something a little less abstract. I'm good at being heartless when I need to be, and not the other way around. I'm going to drop out when I'm asked to backup dance for Britney Spears, anyway.

C. My boyfriend leaves in less than a week.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-11-04T17:35:00

2008-11-04T23:48:11Z

Good news: I had an amazing, amazing, amazing weekend in Chicago. Doing not much else besides dancing was really humbling. But I of course now have these pretty crazy dreams of being a dancer. Shit, I really should give it a try, especially next year when I actually audition instead of not doing so because my team is apathetic. I went to school yesterday but all I did was daydream & wish I was taking another class with Tony Testa. Haha. I forgot to set my alarm for today, so I just didn't go at all.

Bad news: Let's talk about me getting a little emotional over some of the comments to Ashley's last entry. I never realized how frustrating it is to explain to someone of wealth why my mom is unemployed because of being injured on the job, or why my dad is a fucking garbage man even though he went to college. Yeah, that's right, my dad who went to school for business now takes your trash to the dump because of the shit opportunity out there. It's frightening, really. I'd like to think it's because he's just lazy, and maybe it is. But the point is that I have not heard John McCain mention the middle-class once, while I feel like Barack Obama has actually been in a similar situation. I'm sick of my family struggling and I'm sick of my friends' families struggling because of the greedy motherfuckers running this country. Time for some change, plz.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-10-21T14:53:00

2008-10-21T19:56:52Z

So much to do & so little time. Rephrasing: So much to do & so little motivation to get off my ass.

Outpost hasn't called me yet. Fuck. Oh, and I've pretty much decided to stop going to the cafe until they call me asking me where I am... that is, whenever it is they decide to schedule me to work again.

I'm going to go lock myself in my room and study for my history midterm tomorrow until it's time to go see So You Think You Can Dance live.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-10-09T14:18:00

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bvanderheyden @ 2008-09-14T19:52:00

2008-09-15T00:56:03Z

I am on the top of the world right now. Me? On a professional hip hop team? No way! Yeah way! Ah! Me on America's Best Dance Crew??????????? Maybe!

Good thing my mom happened to see that flyer in the bookstore. Today has completely made up my mind about if things happen for a reason or not. What the fuck. Goodbye life; hello Monkey Wrenched.

Hmm..

2008-09-02T20:33:49Z

Maybe?

We walk around this town like we own the streets

2008-09-01T22:57:20Z

"And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees--just as things grow in fast movies--I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer."

For once in my life, a summer has left me speechless. Thinking about the past three months takes my breath away. All I can say is thank you to the people in my life, new or old, that helped make summer 2008 epic. I will never forget it.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-08-25T17:47:00

2008-08-25T22:49:08Z

Sup wonderful Saturday nights. The best thing about my job by far is that it's closed on Sundays.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-08-23T14:51:00

2008-08-23T19:54:26Z

I'm really terrified to start school. Why? 1. Even thinking about this amazing summer having to end. 2. I do not know campus at all. 3. I have a feeling the classes are going to kick my ass. 4. 4,000+ students and I'm supposed to make friends?

bvanderheyden @ 2008-08-17T13:27:00

2008-08-17T18:34:28Z

Boom was pretty fun, except for Sarah getting asked to leave. I'm so happy Hannah is home. My boss talking to me & telling me that I basically wasn't doing enough was not fun, and just pissed me off if anything. It was pretty funny that my punishment was being taken off register because running food is a lot easier & a little more enjoyable. Shit, being the cashier just does favors. Sorry. Last night was fun, too. It's good to know I don't have to get stupid drunk to dance & have a good time.

bvanderheyden @ 2008-08-14T10:31:00

2008-08-14T15:33:36Z

Some pretty wet kickball & reconnecting over Comet a half hour before it closes.